This is the second week I wasted precious time procrastinating instead of working on my projects. Everything else just seems so much more interesting when I have to sit down and prepare to tackle a task. The annoying thing is that the moment my task is finished, all those distractions lose their luster. Garg! If I was in charge of someone who is prone to bad habits like mine, I would have smack them black and blue. Now if only I can inspire that motivation in myself.
Finance wise, this is the time when I should start putting my money into the market; after all, it finally dropped like I anticipated. Unfortunately, I got no moola. Nada, nothing. I had to shell out the big bucks for two classes this summers as well as super expensive books. So now, I'm broke. I'm still quite incensed that just one book cost a whopping $180. Didn't have time to order online either, since I managed to snag two very dedicated professors who believe in cramming the entire 16 weeks of work, not just lessons, into the short 6 summer weeks. Just 2 more weeks and some major projects to go.
Oh yeah, the cost of DSL shot up like mad. Just a couple of months before my contract expired, the price was down to like $15, yet by the time it expired, the price had went up to $23. And that was for new customers only, mine was over $30. I called in and negotiated with them and they offered their competitor's promotional price, which was $25, in exchange for another year. So in addition to paying double for gas, I have to pay extra for DSL too.
I feel like kicking myself
June 29th, 2008 at 10:52 pm
July 15th, 2008 at 06:29 pm
I'm not entirely certain what the answer is, but at least understanding the problem is half the battle? I think, most importantly, you are PERMITTED to rest. Even if it seems like you have no time left. And I'll tell you why:
When I was young, I worked extremely hard academically. I mean, where my friends and classmates will spend their hours goofing off, I hit the books. Hard. Hours would go by. And yet, no progress. I mentally burned out. Nothing stuck.
As a desperate measure, I pulled all-nighters. Stupid. Made me even more tired. I physically burned out. Nothing stuck.
Then when my grades came back, I did no better than my slacker friends and class mates who somehow still seem to get by. Now, I'm no Mensa genius, but I swear I've put in way more time and energy than my peers. And yet, I performed just as "poorly". Why?
Like I said, I learned the hard way that I simply burned myself out. And when my grades came back, I became very discouraged. Then the worst thing happened. I emotionally burned out. The fire in me to do well died. I started procrastinating. I felt bleak and hopeless.
And all because I never learned to stop and rest. Even if I didn't think I had the time to do so, I should've just stopped and rested.
Since then....
I've done much better at just about anything, including studying. I've observed times where I've actually learned better in 5 to 10 minutes with a fresh mind and motivated spirit than I ever did with 2 hours being burned out.
So, please don't kick yourself. Just don't burn out. MAKE yourself rest if you have to. But most of all, you are PERMITTED to rest. This is your life.